If you even SUSPECT that your shrink has given up on you, it's only fair to yourself to 1) ask him, and if you're not satisfied with the answer, then 2) find a new therapist, pronto. This IS something you can work out... definitely. You do not have to be stuck in this mindset if you are determined to get yourself out, and you do seem to be determined.

Good luck to you

We are ALL going to be a-ok!