Hi honey, I'm sorry that you're going through such a rough time of introspection right now. It sounds like you are doing your best to learn from your mistake, which is all anyone can ask of you! Just do your best to apologize to your friend if that's what you want to do, and just hope and pray that she can find it in her to forgive you. If not, life happens! We love you just the same. We can learn from our mistakes. You can do it!

Andy