Thank you MUE & Treehouse -

I can accept the email ceasing for my own benefit, i really can. but it was also a lifeline for thoughts. however i still get it.

it was more of the lack of return phone call and "we're not an emergency service" sentance that got to me. she never asked why i called, it wasn't an emergency, but now she will never know.

i have thought some more and have some questions and statements that i will share when i see her in a couple of days again. i want the air cleared moving forward, i cant second guess myself and be concerned about her reactions and feelings to what i say or dont say.

the silly part of me wishes to up and walk away. not deal with it all. is a little much for me right now. i feel yesterday in a way made me more sad (if thats the correct word).

but the sun is shining today, so thats a good thing. nice spring day.