I stood on the precipice looking down at the frozen water as tears flowed from my eyes filling the watery ice below. Feeling my foot on the brink of falling into the frozen darkness awaiting me below. Then i thought of all those i love dearly in my life and walked away.

This actually happened to me last night, Sometimes I am like lost in a bubble or a cell where there is no escape. There are ones i love so deeply who are so special that i look at them and love them more then my own soul.

I have a special relationship with someone who is real special to me whom i love like no other in the world. We are real close friends and are always there for each other. I have so deep love for this person and her love for me is deep it just is not the same level as i have for her. Which is ok and normal i guess but i find myself so depressed inside to the point i feel like i am losing my little sanity i have left.

I will write more later, for now i am still hanging in there.