I understand what you mean. I have a son and my mother gets far to involved and is always telling me what I should do, and never listens. It feels like you could talk forever and nothing will ever get accomplished. It makes you feel very helpless. You tell your parents how thier actions affect you and it feels like they just don't care what you think. I too need to get out of my mothers house and move on for my own mental well being. So yes I can understand how you feel. I know how angry and hurt you feel, my advice is to try and channel your hurt and anger somewhere. For instance I go to the gym, and I DJ. It keeps me sane it's my outlet. Find something you can use as your outlet too. Try to keep drinking to a minimum and eat when you can. The last thing any of us should do is hurt ourselves because of someone else's inability to listen and be compassionate. People can onlyl change if they themselves are willing to, and if your parents don't listen to you then I highly doubt it will change. They would have to see the error in their ways. However, many people spend to much time pointing the finger at everyone else instead of themselves. Take some time to reflect on who you are as a person, never lose sight of you. I am sure you have a lot to offer and are a great person, try not to forget that. LIfe will get better and it has a plan for each of us. Remember events like this only make us stronger if we are willing to learn from them. Take what your parents do and make sure that you do not repeat what you don't like. Life is all about learning, the question is if you are willing to accept the lesson? You will find your way to happiness, and when you move out it will become all that more apparent.