WOW, granite. You had options and you chose! That's wonderful. I think you are stronger for calling that other T even though you're choosing to stay with this one.

I think your T knows you are strong, and that you can move to this next level of talking and not emailing. If you trust her, then it WILL happen!! Whispering is all right, as long as she can hear! Hearing that she really cares about you, I think, is going to change everything for the better for you!!! I really do!! You're making me cry, though everything is making me cry these past few days.