I'm feeling bad right now
and I'm realizing that the list of distractions and alternatives that T and I made together isn't really helpful. Mostly because I SI when I am angry with myself and I want to be self destructive. It doesn't help to take out my anger on something else because then I am not punishing myself. I have alternatives that don't involve SI, like drinking, but since they are self-destructive they aren't much better. Advice?