Thanks for your help. I have had it I am guess for at least 18 years and didn't realize it. I don't like talking about these things because like someone mentioned, the thoughts are disturbing that is probably why I never did. I didn't think they were important and for some reason I didn't connect them to OCD. I am relieved though because I mentioned one of them to my psych doctor and she says it is treatable. I am scared to talk to my therapist about them because I am going into more detail with her because I trust her so much. Just really anxious about it. I don't want her to think I would actually do any of the things that I have thoughts about. I don't want her to think I am disgusting. I am embarrassed and feel shame about them. I hope this clears things up. I just want to stop feeling so bad about myself which my psych doctor won't happen until we get this under control with medication and therapy.