Thanks for your replys. My psychologist IS a specialist with PTSD... so that's a good thing. There is s o m e progress in them understanding the disorder... part of my problem is the "abuse" IS still continuing... the insurance company that "runs" my life still has me followed and balks at everything (of course, they just look at the bottom line.)

So there's really very little about putting in the past and "it's not happening now" idea, which would help if I could. I'm sure. Plus I am disabled because of this ptsd causing injury, so it's apparent to me 24/7. Did I already say that? sorry.

When I am triggered (for example by some authoritarian which I guess reminds my unconscious of the authority of the ins. com?) there IS NO THINKING. It's all reaction and automatic.. I'm not sure that the progress of at least now remembering some of it AFTER the fact is all that great... tend to become depressed because of not being in control.

Please research anything I suggest before believing...