Alright, so I don't want to go see a therapist right now because I don't know how long I will stay this happy or what. But I realized, whenever I felt like I was on top of the world, whenever I felt my best, it was right after I was finished singing and dancing in my room.
So, today when I got home from being out, I sang at the top of my lungs to all my favorite and old songs and I danced like there was no tomorrow and I feel SO MUCH BETTER.
I am not saying that it will help me all the time, but it sure helped me today. I am still going to post and write whatever upset me on here because this has become my outlet for allot of my pain. Here I know my thoughts are safe. That my pain is alright and it is okay to cry here.
But, I am still a bit shaky when it comes to large crowds, I am going to see how school goes tomorrow and talk with my guidance person about finishing the school year online. That just might be the better choice for me.
But for right now, I am doing pretty good. I just want it to stay that way.