I just emailed my old T.
I was in therapy with her for about 2 years. Ended up hospitalized for a mental breakdown.

My breakdown had a strong transference component. I'm not saying therapy drove me nuts...but, the way in which she handled my strong transference was not the best.

After that episode, I started out with my actual therapist, who is great. But I've been having strong feelings again for my T, both old and actual.

Last week I posted "messing it up w my t" on this forum...

I was basically arguing w my T every session just to get her attention.

This may sound stupid but... my actual T is more firm, and I sometimes feel that she doesn't like me...I know she cares for me...but she doesn't show it as much as my old T did.

I'm not sure how to get my point here but...

Basically I emailed my old T because I want to be able to talk to her on a regular basis (she was ok with that)... and sort of get her "care/nurturing" ...and keep doing real therapy with my actual therapist which really gets me the results.

I have no real questions here. I just needed to post my thoughts. And maybe hear what you guys think.

Ashley