Life- their are 7 stages of grief that you seem to be going through. Although you have not lost a loved one in this circumstance you have lost something huge. Your reality of normal. Here are the seven stages. I hope you find them helpful. Remember, grieving takes time, their is no wrong or right way to grieve and each of the 1st few stages are not always linear. I hope you find these helpful.

1. Shock and Denial
2. Pain and Guilt
3. Anger and Bargaining
4. Depresssion, Reflection,Lonliness
5. The Upward turn
6. Reconstruction and working through
7. Acceptance and Hope

If you want more info I just googled 7 stages of grief and came up with a site. It wouldn't let me copy and paste it though.

My thoughts and prayers are with you as you grapple with this new idea of not having a normal family. Mildred