Oh yeah! Like others have said, the way I have been is all that I can remember, and I'm not sure that there would be anything left if I let go of my psychopathology. I resist and drag my feet and fight, and I'm trying to stop doing that and cooperate with T. It's so hard though. Oops, I'm not supposed to use that excuse anymore.

What the future holds is very scary, but look at it this way; it's got to be better than the way things are now, right?

You'll make it. It takes time though, and you can only change as fast as you are able.