gee... i am gabby these days. I have yet to learn the art of being concise.

Thanks sun for your response to my singing story. I didn't mean to end that post with such a downer story but it just came out and I didn't bother to delete it. Sorry if it upset you. It doesn't upset me anymore. It was what it was. I take from the experiences an understanding that that internal validation is more important to my wellbeing then any external could ever be. Searching always for validation from other will keep you from experiences peace of mind. The old (PPD) people pleasing disorder.