never heard from my therapist, and now it's 3 am and i'm up thinking about all this. i feel like i woke up, and now i'm having a nightmare. do i really just show up on thursday like it's nothing? i've been thinking a lot about calling her in the morning and asking if i'm still supposed to go. she and i talk a lot about abandonment (it's probably the central theme to my therapy), and she's assured me over and over that she would never abandon me (as my family once did). now all i feel is totally abandoned by her. this really sucks. what do i do?