Thanks & huggles to everyone who replied to this thread

New Year is as bad as Xmas, but that's over too now. No more traumatic holidays until Australia Day (end of January) when my t died last year.

Idk how to handle the traumatic memories, which have anniversaries every month of the year. Sometimes 2 a month

My friends here at PC are my only support, so thanks everyone who says we aren't a bad person, we don't think we are, but then why has so much gone wrong for us irl
We tried so hard, & still everything goes wrong.