Hello

I've been worrying about some thing. My future seems hopeless. I'm at college and I'm studying Health and social care. I have less than a year to go. I haven't even done a placement yet because me being late because the night before I had a interview, I drank alcohol and got drunk. I'm such a stupid person. I wanted to be a nurse but I don't think I want to be one because it might be too emotional for me. I would like to be a photographer. People have commented on my photography. I do this as a hobby. They said it was good. Whenever a tutor asks me about university or UCAS (application for university), I just say I don't want to go to university. I can't pay for the UCAS because I don't have £20 (around that amount). University might be hard and difficult. If I did assignments for university, I would struggle. Apparently if someone does one mistake on an assignment such as not referencing, they fail straight away. I don't know what to do... Seriously, This is annoying me and I think of this sometimes. I see my future as hopeless. I don't like my life.. What's the point of living? Sometimes I wonder whether I should live anymore... I might fail my current course but I'm not sure. Everyone else in my class and around me are happy and have boyfriends and can drive.. But nah look at me.. I don't have a job and I don't have a boyfriend. Some people ask me about whether I'm going to have driving lessons but I tell them that I can't afford driving lessons. I don't like being an 18 year old... I would rather be a child again... But there is too or some pressure when someone is 18. Can anyone give me advice? I'm kind of worrying about this. This issue is on my mind some of the time.