Wow ladies this makes me so sad to hear. I definately understand some of your pain. But I`ve never been abused by my dad, just given the cold shoulder by my dad, never able to say anything to him without him cutting me off mid conversation and not wanting to hear the rest. I guess the fear of the unknown was the biggest thing I delt with like how fussy and irratated would he be. my thing was to avoid him like the plague. and I`ve avoided males like the plague all my life. the worst ones are always drawn to me. they come out of the wood works to trick me, use me and abuse me. And since i really crave male attention I just put up with it. my believe in my eary 20s was any attention is good attention. these days i dont believe that way of thinking. but with my current boyfriend life has been turbulent in the past I have been so upset with him lately and I talked with him about possibly breaking up and I just let out all my frustrations to him and he cared and he listened and he wats to improve his end of things and make the relationship better. im glad my opening up to him seemed to make a diff. if it didnt i would have left him. I have been so upset with him for many months prior to confronting him recently because he seemed to get unavailable and distant and that cause me to worry so much. but he is away at college and works and admitted he was stressed out and tired a lot and he has SZ which also takes a lot out of him physically. I dont want to father issues i have to wreck my interactions with men and I am taking steps to improve it. i just need to reprogram myself to think positively and change how i react to men and my boyfriend. i believe its hard to change but awareness about your problem is essential to take steps to change.i wish you ladies the best and hope you will take steps to change for yourself. just remember you are worthy, worth while and beautiful. dont believe anything different. peace.