Well, I went to the party and made it through the weekend. The children came. There was one boy and one girl. The girl was the same age and looked a lot like that little girl I tried to protect. It was so hard to look at her sometimes, but I tried my best to push everything out of my mind.

I did have some difficulty this weekend. Me and my bf were laying in bed holding each other....harmless stuff. Then I noticed on the other side of me there was room on the mattress (we slept on a mattress that was on the floor in the livingroom). I became so terrified that the little girl would come in and lay beside me. She never did, but the intense fear was there. But I got past it.

Just wanted to tell you all how I fared this weekend.