hi
this past yr has been aufull. i have had to stop college because i was seeing my stepfather in my car and school and he is dead. i have also thought i saw my best friend from high school. the place i went to college is near were i grew up. and i am living very close to my mom but it is okay and freaking me all at once.i was also failing the classes. i want to start up gain in the fall though. i dont have a therpist because most therapist i have had do not kno how to treat dissociation. right now i am depressed and embarrassed. embarrassed because my friends daughters friend came to visit today. my friend's daughter was DID and she killed her self . well i switched in the middle of the visit and it was noticeable . i have been crying most of the day and have had suicidal and self harm thoughts from some time. i dont know what to do. i have also passed out because i am so stressed. my boyfriend doesnt understand my mental health issues. he doesnt understand when i dont want him to touch me. even though i have tried to explain it. i feel so lost and alone. please help...