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Originally Posted by Sannah
So trust is an area to work on? And feeling worthy?
yes and yes.....I don't trust that I am worthy of connection, that people would really want have a connection with me, or that they would want to maintain/deepen it if they saw more of the 'real' me. There's a part, a large part of me that does not feel I am worthy or that it's safe to trust that others think I'm worthy.....I keep seeing this with my T all the time now, in how I'm perceiving my connection/closeness with her. It's such a struggle to keep trusting that the connection is still there, or that she wants it to be there......because she's so much more of the 'real' me I keep thinking she will surely want to distance herself from me, because the 'real' me feels unworthy....
"The ache from the empty place" - some expression of this in therapy and some mourning can make this go away. Yes.....I talked about it a little in session yesterday and that did help.....it's not gone away, but at the moment feels more manageable!
But this discontent with what it isn't is info on what you still have to work on. Yes....
Yes!
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We talked about some of this yesterday, this feeling I have that nothing will ever fill the emptiness, or that no one person will ever be able to love me the way I want/need and I don't expect that, but it all feels like a loss and that I feel like I'm grieving for that. And she said that it was wise to recognize and not expect that any one person could be all that I needed. And that what I was doing in reaching out more to different friends, seeing how one could offer me something, meet some needs for care and support in a way that another couldn't or that my husband can't, is good......no one person can offer us everything we need, but different ones can meet different needs, and all together, it can help us feel more filled up.