elena, i've been so happy to see your progress. 'member the beginning? you've made more progress than you realize right now. keep everything simple...you didn't get this way overnight and getting well will take time too.
btw, do you have a sponsor? i forget, but a sponsor can help you a lot one on one. she's been where you now are when she first went to al-anon or ACOA.talking about how you feel at meetings helps too. that way they can support you in need.
crying is absolutely healthy for you cause you're "vomiting" up the pain-sorry for the graphic phrase- but that's what the crying is about. you've had the courage to look at yourself rather than keeping up the hard vebeer like everything's ok.
if you can for now i'd avoid much contact with your parents. it just reminds you of what you're trying to get out of your life...their drinking and how much it has affected you.
pm me anytime at all. have to stop for now. you have courage and are brave to face this and get on with your OWN life. if they choose to stay in the problem, YOU don't.
hugs to you, elena. here for you.