Kimmy, I have left replying to this for a while because I find your compliments (not just yours, anyone's) so hard to accept. But I thank you for them; I think I need to keep trying to accept them.

Melting is a good description.

I have sent this to my friend who will come with me to the hospital again. That was hard to do, because I haven't talked about the DID aspects at all. I also sent it to my counsellor. Now I am fighting the negative thoughts as neither of them has responded. I know there are good reasons for them not to respond, but still...

Thank you for your response. I found it helpful to realise that you too have some dissociative episodes you do remember and others you don't.