(((lavie)))) please don't apologize for giving vent to your frame of mind no matter how poor you assess it to be. Otherwise you won't be the only one here who needs to apologize.

I think it is good for each of us that we are sharing our own feelings and our own discoveries about ourselves and ways of managing our symptoms. I think we can all see ourselves in each other and when we share overcomings we are encouraged to keep going. We learn from one another as much as we support one another.

It is all good in my mind.

I had a really really peaceful and beneficial (see how I avoided the word 'good' lo) sit last night. It felt nice to assume the position and really focus on my breath. To listen intently to every second of its in and outs. To breath in until I couldn't take in any more, rest there for a second or two and then exhale until there was no more breath to release and then being breathless for a few seconds before inhalling again. I stayed with it until there was no choppiness left to my breathing. It went a full 15 minutes that just seemed to fly by. When distracting images came in I acknowledged I was thinking and just said 'hi... bye' and got back to my breath.

Unfortunately I woke up this morning feeling really anxious. I think I know why but what does that really matter. What matters is that I need to restore some balance. To let go of the stressor and move forward one step at a time to the place where I can be present in my own life this minute.

I just stopped by before I head out for a walk to regroup.

I wanted to share something I was thinking about earlier.... but now I have forgot what it was. It was quite insightful. I remember thinking that but for the life of me I can't remember what it was even about. My short term memory is becoming more and more non existant.

I will see if it comes to me again when I am less anxious.

Blessings to you all. I am so so grateful for the support you give to me and the opportunity to return the gift as best I can. The river is calling my name. Catch up with you all later.