Myzen~

I too have got commitment issues like this once in awhile. I am figuring it as being more an issue of my being bipolar though . We tend to say yes to doing things and then back out . That happens alot with manic periods that we agree to do things. I am not sure since I dont think you've been dx'd with bipolar that I can tell you what needs to be done. Except to maybe tell them that you will need to think it over before you make a commitment.

Now as far as you telling people in your life about this place. I think its your way of reaching out to give them a chance to see how things are for you. That its real, it bothers you that its hard to keep commitments. And you want them to know that your intentions are always good. And maybe your trying to gain their understanding too. I too have done this. Last March when I was in the hospital, two of my friends here in town became even more concerned about me. They wanted to make sure that I didnt hide things from them , or keep my feelings in anymore. So I gave them the link to another forum we are members at . I see them check in every once in awhile. Which is ok to me.I am glad I got good friends like that.The one girl has been my friend since first grade!!!!! That makes 31 years of friendship. I still have a safe haven I feel even though I did share it with them.They are only looking out for my best interests. And for that I am truely grateful!

The only other suggestion I have is for you to go see your pdoc again and see if he/she thinks there is another medication, or even a dx that has come to light.

Hang in there Myzen. I hope things ease up for you!!! Hope this helps a bit.

Hugz~
Bethy