I want to find more resilience within. I need to stop running from everything that seems difficult, aversive. I wonder to what degree my poor concentration is worsened by constant self-talk about how poor my concentration is. My mind is very suggestible. I have to bring to mind memories of peaceful moments, even blissful moments that I've had, not caused by external circumstances, but by a shift in consciousness, or by "grace". I can't force this to reoccur, but I can choose to sow seeds, and choose how to respond to negative states when they arise. My mind so automatically frequently veers toward the negative. It takes vigilance and effort to address the pattern. I need to call up greater willingness to make the effort, and not pull the blankets over my head, passively wishing it would all just get better somehow. This is my life and my misfiring brain. Today, I'll try for greater acceptance of what shows up in my life, not apathy or victimhood, but fighting or fleeing.

Onward, you spiritual warriors.