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I am so sorry you are struggling. Flashbacks are difficult for sure. Is it possible for you to go to a college in another area so you may not be triggered as easily?

Do you have the possibility of finding a therapist? Even one who is not as knowledgeable about DID, but is supportive and non judgmental will give you the support you really need and deserve.

I'm so sorry you were embarrassed over the situation with the other lady. That is hard. If her mother was DID, perhaps she has a better understanding than most about what happened?

I wish you much peace this year and hope you can find help for your situation. We are here to support as we can.

Take care,