BnLsMOM - Im so sorry you are feeling this way and having to go through this.
(hugs)

We have to understand that sometimes its as difficult to be the "caregiver" as it is to be the "ill one". Maybe he will partisipate in therapy with you? Try special things every now and then. A love letter goes a long ways sometimes. Talk a bit about how BP is a balance of life not a progress.

Not that I want to "disregaurd" anything you say here, thou it sounds you are a bit down and not having much faith in yourself right now. I have felt that way many of times, I always thought someday I would leave for work only to never return. Give your hubby a hug and hold on tight. Encourage his partisipation in your treatment plan. Don't forget to involve your children too. More involved in your treatment plan the better chance of balance you have.

(((lots of hugs))))