((((Kebs)))))
It's good to see you. I haven't in a while, I'm sorry if I've missed your postings. Regardless, really good to see your name. I don't know all of your situation but I do remember some, and I think I can respond to the last bit:
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There's a theory that once you have an established life style it is difficult to imagine a different way of life.
So again I say, why bother.
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This reminds me of some reading I had to do for a class I'm taking. Here's the quote that struck me today, from Precarious Life by Judith Butler:
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Perhaps... one mourns when one accepts that by the loss one undergoes one will be changed, possibly forever. Perhaps mourning has to do with agreeing to undergo a transformation (perhaps one should say submitting to a transformation) the full result of which one cannot know in advance.
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You have lost so much. Depression in general takes away so much from all of us - so much happiness and joy, gone! You've lost your old lifestyle, the ability to take the walks you enjoy so much. And now this change is being forced upon you. I think this quote applies because it describes that this CHANGE is happening, what you're going through is kind of like mourning. The thing is
change is not an end... change is BOTH and end AND a new beginning.
So I think it's worth the bother. Its worth trying to change for the better, to transform into something new even though we don't know what it is yet
I'm wondering - someone suggested you print out your post about how you're feeling about your medications. I know medications have been problematic for you (or I should say getting the right set of meds has been seemingly impossible), but I do think it's a good idea. It could help