DAICY, so sorry that your mother is no help, or worse, contributing to your state, since you so clearly need her love, support and undestanding. I can only imagine how it feels for you. So sorry, DAICY, hugs

I wish your mom will realize it is not about her, and the more she screams the worse she makes it. If she wants you to not take pills, find more holistic ways of dealing, which would be understandable, screaming is not the way to explore it. She may come around, yet. I hope she does, soon.

Please realize this is not your fault, it's her s**t, so don't hate your life, don't hate yourself.

My advice is, even though your mom's lack of compassion is breaking your heart, and you wish she was there for you, lean on your dad, tell him your feelings.