Just wanted to add that my most recent thing that became huge in my head was wanting T to tell me I am his favorite. I know he loves me and cares about me, because he tells me, but I want TO BE THE FAVORITE. He has even implied more than once that I *am* but won't come out and say the words himself. THAT got huge in my head - HUGE - but seems to have quieted down.

Wonder what will be next ????