I hope you begin to feel better soon Sun. I pray your heavy heart finds peace.

I know what you mean about judging your progress. We seldom can see when we are makinig gains. I wonder sometimes if I am afraid to because I sense the gains are fleeting and it is only a matter of time before I am back at square one. My doctor commented that I was doing much better then when I first came to him a couple of months ago. I found myself resisting his observation. Correcting his assumptions. I left just thinking he really has no clue. I was afraid whatever he say as an improvement was fleeting; just a pause in the drama that is my life.

I can appreciate how frustrating it is to search of remedies with no real return on your investment of time and money. I am sorry the homeopathic options haven't been working very well for you. I hope your appointment goes well on Friday. I am glad at least that your headaches have eased up. That is something positive to be greatful for.

I hope for you that the symptoms you are coping with ease off so you can get some rest. May you find the peace you need, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually.

I agree that sense of hopeless is pretty aweful. It zaps you of all your energy and depletes you of all your resources to find hope again. You are not unfixible though it seems that way right now. It is where we land when we are battle weary. It gets better. I have to believe that.

5 minutes is 5 minutes Sun. It is 5 minutes more then nothing. lol. I am glad you are going to persevere with meditation and that you have been so bless by what you are learning on this journey. I feel the same way.

Just having stuck with it this long is major progress for me. Being able to apply it across the board in my life has been a wonderful gift. I think I am hooked.

Wishing everyone peace and joy and all that you may crave in your heart. Borrowing from Lavie.... 'onward spiritual warriors.'

Blessings.