Maybe you can write out today how much pain you are feeling, so you can hand the note to T tomorrow. Good to tell him/her. Your T may be able to reassure you with a few words that what you are going trough is actually a sign you are facing things you haven't before so you ARE stronger and ARE better--it just feels awful though, to go through this. Hope that IS the case. And, if it's not, better he know that too so he can reassess ho to help you deal with everything. Worried about you--hang in there!