As some of you may know I live in a very messed up marriage...if you can call it that. It's hard for me to admit this, but I'm emotionally abused - not constantly but in spurts. If I were to leave, this would mean we would live in poverty...hard on the kids. We had an argument this morning and awful things were said, that I don't even want to repeat.

I know when they're old enough to live independently, I'll leave for sure even if I have to live in poverty - then it won't matter. I always have great advice for other people but not for my own impossible situation. I feel awful.