Azalysa, I understand that wearing all your emotions on your sleeve every day can be difficult too.. I find that if people know too much though they tend to walk on egg shells, or always want to attribute everything I do to "the problem", where at times it has nothing to do w/ it... I know not all people do this, but I've learned to just keep things in and put on that mask. You're right, it does get you through each day, and you're able to get things done, have people have some kind of faith in you etc, but it makes opening up SO much harder, b/c you know that they have no idea... for all they know, you're just fine, right? And even if I get through my days seeminlgy being 'okay', at the end of the day I know I'm not and who to share that with, who to call and cry with, who to talk with when all you feel like doing is have someone listen to you? there's no one. why? b/c they don't know. it gets lonely... it feels fake. my whole life ends up feeling fake. so as much as they're all coping strageties, I still believe you need a balance btwn opening up and keeping things in... doing either one to the extreme isn't very healthy.