Hiya desirae. I totally can relate to your post. I've discussed this issue with my T. I used to FEEL like I WAS my mother. I'd look down at my hands and see HER, or feeling like my thoughts were the same as hers etc..... my voice, my eyes...the depression.... just my whole existence..... Then my T asked me to find something that was not like her. Something in my looks. She told me to look myself in the mirror and find things I like about myself, even if it means I have to make things up. Also, remember.... not everything is bad about your parents. Even if we look like our mom/dad, walk like them, sound like them...doesn't mean we are BAD. Right? ..... It's the fear of the "disease" tho. Of going crazy. Of making the same mistakes. Of doing the wrong thing even if we know what not to do.... of our own thoughts.... It's so frustrating. ... I wish there was a guarantee that we'll turn out better... and you know what? I think we will, in the end. Because we're here, looking for a solution!!! That's the difference.
love and peace