Trust me Hazel, I understand. I hear every word you are saying. I wonder myself how many times the doc or the T can hear I want to die. How many times???
I get tired of feeling that way...and they sure as hell have to get tired of me saying.
We have to concentrate on what brings us the slightest bit of hope...
We have.
We need to.
I understand what it is like to have your mind feel out of control and twisted and swirling. This is how mine is every day. I am in a "fly free zone" right now and am thinking clearer then usual.
But I so get what you are saying. I so understand your feelings!