Hey BNLsMOM - I'm sorry you're having such a rough time. It sounds like your husband doesn't understand your illness or is choosing to not care. He is being a terrible person to you.
you are trying and you are doing your best. If he's not in it for the long haul then he's not a good man.
What about an outpatient program? i've done that a few times and they've been very helpful - it's a full day - like going to school, but you can go home at the end of the day so you wouldn't be away from your kids for so long.