Thanks Everyone! Means alot to me, i think another reason is because i thought she was the luckiest girl in the world while she was dating him, I wanted to be her, Now i know she had alot of depression problems and sadness. I have been there before so i can sympathize and even though at the time she had a wonderful guy, she was sad, i wanted to be her cause she had him and he would tell me , dont wish you were someone else ever, you are great how you are!