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Hey Rohag,
My Mum has been made redundant.... this is an issue in itself and she is always in the house. We go food shopping every Friday together. I cherish moments where I have the house to myself. It's my own fault for going back to live with them last June when I was in debt.
My friend has told me I need to get out and about a lot more. I know this is my depression kicking in.... but it's like I don't want to stop it??
I feel I have to defie sometimes "authority"/"wisdom"/"knowledge" sometimes to make me feel human again?
I don't have Grandparents, I have an Aunt/Uncle but we are not close. My Brother lives in another town from me which isn't really far but I am not really close to him. My Sister still lives at home too. My friends are mostly younger than me and are in relationships/living at home with folks etc
It's so much more easier when your living in your own wee flat enjoying freedom. Don't get me wrong I love my folks. But suffocation comes to mind sometimes and especially now that you have pointed it out to me Rohag.
I am still wide awake. I am thinking I am doing an all nighter. Wish I could go into livingroom but my Mum is sleeping there tonight. Sitting in my room bored, not manic or hyper more depressed and deflated.
I know things are not bad well the job prospect is bad and my future outlook is bad but I am not feeling too ill or too far gone. I just have to make it to Monday and I will be fine. I am gonna ask my GP if she can give me something for my anxiety attacks??? Don't know if she can but I can't live like this
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