Hi Miss Laura, I'm sad that you're feeling so low. I know things look impossible now, but it can get better. Just please don't give up. Don't stop taking your meds either. I know you're really tired of being ill and trust me, we all are tired of our ups and downs, but take one day at a time and believe that this low period will pass. Get the rest you need, and get some relaxation too. Try music, walking outdoors, reading a novel, drawing, something soothing for your soul. I pray you'll get through this. and I'll check on you again.