Miss Laura, you have helped me immensely when I needed to hear words of encouragement. Please don't give up because you have so much to offer other people. I'm sorry to hear you are struggling right now and wish I could offer better words of support but I don't know what it is like to be in your shoes (as you know already), but I think you are amazing for reaching out to help others in need and I hope right now you can somehow realize you are now in need of support and find a way to accept some support/help to get you back into a better place. HUG for you.