Yack, that sounds like you are making progress. Being more grounded sounds good. I've never had panic attacks, and probably wouldn't recognize it if I did, even, since I'm so used to chronic anxiety that I didn't even know that I had - and my primary dx these days is generalized anxiety disorder. I'm sure that it's very unpleasant and scary when you have a panic attack, but I also know that you can learn to manage them. It's good that you're not stuck on what happened, and understandable that sometimes all of those feelings can come back, even unclearly or vaguely. I bet that it's hard to let go of them, isn't it?

I can relate to your story quite a bit. I totally lost it after a court experience too. They really need to do a better job of preparing people for court, regardless of why they are there. It really can often be traumatic.