I would recommend therapy too. You will have one person you don't need to hide from. And as for the reason, wanting to be back at work, but not able to because of bpd, seems like a good enough reason. Heh, the title of your thread seems like a reason enough. If you think you may have hard time speaking out, maybe you can print what you've written here in anonymity where it's easier to open up than face to face.

Oh, and I had a rather normal childhood too, wasn't abused, no alcoholic parents or anything. They would have been quite hurt, as a matter of fact, if I told them my problems had anything to do with them. Just because I can see how their behaviors played into certain things, does not mean I have to confront or accuse them. They were ok. Done their best. Really.

I don't know about NHS (other than wishing we had something like that here!), but I would encourage you to investigate.