I've gone from being numb to being depressed. It probably isn't good that I am cutting back on my meds because I can't afford them. I think that is making everything worse.

I feel so alone. It feels like no one IRL cares. I was told tonight that the family I was working for probably hasn't paid me yet (they were supposed to send me a check) because they can't. Well, where does that leave me w/ rent, food, meds etc. So I'm supposed to feel sorry for them when I can't pay my bills? It's not like I can tell my debtors to go after them for the money. Why doesn't anyone care. Even my parent don't care. They act like it is no big deal.

I had to stop seeing my T and so I don't even have her support.

I feel so alone. All the time I just want to cry. And that never really has been a part of my depression for me, or at least, I have been able to stop it. Now it seems like I have no control over it.

Life isn't supposed to be this hard.