I love the depth and breadth of this thread too And I also love it's intimacy. Thank you guys for making this a safe and healing place

((((((ss)))))) It was very moving to read how you celebrate your Mom's life each year How beautiful. And how wonderful that your partner helped you make the transition from mourning her loss to celebrating her life. I lost my Dad three years ago and I feel a lot of pain. It's another thing I try and avoid thinking about because it hurts so much. That's something for another post though.

I'm blown away that you were able to choose mindfulness over an explosion of anxiety/rage earlier. Unfortunately I am nowhere near that level of enlightenment. When you ask in your post whether anyone chooses an explosion over mindfulness, I am sorry to say that I do. I am very reactive and quick to snap. Oftentimes it doesn't even feel like a choice, it's so automatic. But I know I DO have a choice, just, that choice needs to be made in a split second. And I'm struggling with that.

It is really awesome that you are achieving this ((((((((ss))))))) And very inspiring!

I'm determined to go to bed earlier tonight so I will end here and wish everyone a peaceful and restorative night.

Much love to all