sometimes I just lie in bed at night and feel so frustrated that life hasn't turned out anyway I thought it would. I'm sure every person in the world feels this way. I just feel like it's this culmination of bad choice or dumb choices or not making a choice that has landed me here. I feel this sense of I've made my bed now I should lie in it. I want things I can't have.

So much of my life is so repetitive. I feel like shampoo...lather rinse repeat.

I should be sleeping...but I just have to get this off my chest. I feel like this a lot. A lot of it's stress and I really need a vacation which I have in a few weeks. So much of what I feel I don't even want to talk about. It just is... just an ugly soup.

Didn't know if this is the right place to post this there is no my life feels wrong section.