I'm feeling very anxious right now. My old T didn't email me back...and she is the kind of person that answers within 24 hours.
Had session with my actual T today and it was really bad. She doesn't agree about me contacting my old T.

And she also said something that really hurt me. She said that if I want full time attention I can't be in regular outpatien therapy. I think this is very unfair. I'm not just going to hospitalize myself because "I'm very attached to my therapist.

I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like no therapist stands me and that I'm just too much for anyone.

I know I can be very demanding. That's part of my problem. But now I'm hurting a lot.

Mybe my T is just trying to set healthy boundries. That's probably what's going on. But I can't stand them. It's just to much for me.

I need her now. I need them both, my old and actual T. I need some help.

Ashley