Not really adding anything to this thread other than using it as a way to help deal with what I am feeling. Had a bad personal meltdown today. It's only three hours from a major presentation and I still have so much to do, yet no motivation to do it. No one to delegate to, no one with the same skillset as me here.

Don't know how I can do this anymore. I can never find balance in my work and personal life. I want to give up so bad but I know it won't help. Can't do this anymore. Can't stay strong enough, ever. Only end up hurting people I care about because of this job, this life that has grown increasingly meaningless.

I just want to be happy sometime. I know I'll never have it here, too results-oriented. But what job isn't? That's our society. That's our lives. All we have to look forward to is an inevitable grind to line someone else's pockets. I want out, but there is no "out". Tough luck I guess.