You are in my thoughts a lot since you first started this thread. I find myself feeling really anxious and nervous about what I want to say here, but will give it a try.

I read what you wrote as suicidal. Are you? If I am reading you incorrectly, please let me know.

With what you are going through, can we help? Can you let us know what help if any would be welcome? If venting and being listened to works, that is cool. Can you use some suggestions?

Even though I feel like I'm sort of vulnerable by writing all this, I have to. I can't tiptoe around possible danger time. Are you in danger?

Sarah